Wednesday, April 19, 2006

A Preface to "letting go" and moving on.....

I have not been here for awhile. And it has been an eventful time and a time of "Letting Go" for me. I just thought of this blog that has been neglected and realized that I have avoided posting here so that I wouldn't have to actually deal with any of it on a personal level.

So finally here I am and for a start I will just say that When 'things' happen in my life, sometimes it isn't about me. That seems a bit 'letting go' of ego I suppose. So it is not easy to sort it all out all at once and with hindsight it isn't going to feel like it was really happening around me anyway.

That all said.
On Valentine's Day , my house burned down. There were many blessings that day that I will post at a later time. I have posted about them in another place and will find those posts to put here in a week or so....
A few weeks later, just as things seemed to be working toward being a bit more 'secure', my dearest friend's son was in a horrible accident where a go cart he was on exploded and he was burned very badly. He is recovering well Thank Goodness.
Then .... 11 days ago, my dad died.

This may be the most challenging event I have ever experienced.

So now I will retreat once again for a little while and then return with some progress and some of the elements of the process of "Letting Go" as it is important for me to remember that it is not 'suppose' to be always easy. But, it is 'always' possible to get through anything in life without the need to hinder the healing.

I am healing, I am letting go, I am holding on and then letting go again and again. Moment by moment, one day at a time, all this will one day be a distant memory and I will recall that in the midst of turmoil and emotional imbalance, I was able to pull through with the help of Loving and Caring people who will always be close to my heart.

Counting my Blessings, GypsyOwl